Well, I realized this morning, that it has been forever that I have posted in LJ. There has been a lot going on, and not at the same time. My computer keeps being a bitch and i get too frustrated with it to have the patience and write about something. Boys have come and gone, well two in particular, since my last entry. I have said goodbye to Ben for good now. *Finally* Apparently he felt like a victum in my sex parade, and that I am a dirty slut hole... lol too funny. The other boy that has cum and gone, is that guy Drew I was braggin about in my last post. How quickly things change. Well, the guys at work say to apply the 5 second rule to him... in that if he didn't last longer than 5 seconds then it didnt count. Sooo... I think I am letting that rule be applied to this fucked up situation. I am currently chatting with three guys right now, I figure a best defense is a good offence. One is in Calgary that I talk on the phone too everyday, he's nice, has baby momma drama, and ... he lives in Calgary. The other guy used to work with Saucy and Roms, and I went out with him once, and talk to him often on msn. He's very laid back, and doesn't seem the type to pursue a girl... so I would have to go outside of my realm to make this one work. The other guy I got hooked up with through Saucy's coworker. We've hung out a couple times, he's nice, and seems pretty respectful, and has made to attempt to keep in contact with me, and to make plans to hang out. I was a little scared at first, as I have this constant nag in my head, that guys only want me for sex. I thought that about this guy, but not after last night. We hooked up after he got off work, and we went to his house to watch movies. I met his roommates, and we smoked and watch 40 year old virgin... god I forgot how funny that movie is. I ended up crashing there, and he even said, that he didn't want to have sex. So that was cool, and we slept, very respectfully next to each other... lol. But we will see where this one is going.. I don't want to get my hopes up.
Anyways, Passion Party tonight in DuFrost, should get my shit together, as i want to get my passport pic taken today. I am planning a trip to NC to visit my bro, so I can see my new newphew. My sister got engaged on Vday, how cute, she's already so pumped.

Its strange how you can move away, lose touch with some of your closest friends,(because life happens), and when you see each other again, its just like old times. Telling stories, of messed up things that have happened, relationships that have come and gone in that time. Thats what I did the other night when I hung out with Jodi. We met up at the local pub, for some drinks, moved to the Tavern for some more, ran into old party friends, smoked a doobie in some guys truck... just like old times. All sitting in a truck outside a tavern, smoking a doobie, having high talk about old times. Jodi and I ended going to her place to sit dazed talking each others ears off, about the wonderful MR> Wrongs that we have wasted our time with. She got teary apoligizing for not being a great friend, and getting wrapped up in her relationship. I told her I dont resent her for that... life happens, people lose touch, but as long as the hosipitality is there when we can see each other thats all that matters. You ever lose touch with people and then when you see them you snub them? I can understand if there was a falling out, or something, but if you just lose touch due to distance..... do you just snub them.... Guess its a sign of true friendship. I havent had any of my old friends snub me. Each one of them has been excited about me being home.
I visited Sha ron ron, with Amanda the other night, we all sat around and chatted like old times, laughed about past drunken nights of Shurenda swingin on a sign downtown, and how it broke and she fell, and Amanda stole the sign, and is still in her Apt to this day. That was probably 4 yrs ago now. And being around them all again, felt like it happened last night.
This new years was a blast... I am drunk here,(at my sisters) 3:30 am Hali time... 1:30 am Peg time.... and well I am excited. 2007 is suppose to be my year. Its started off pretty good. I am happy.. just have to keep the smiles going. Thought a long time tonight after I said good bye to my Dad. I had a cry, (no one noticed) I miss him, and really want to be around him more.... I honestly think I am going to put effort into looking into work in NS... put it off because I havent known my direction... I figure if I dont get a "sign" soon, that I will seriously consider moving back... sorry guys.. I love ya... but man, I would die if my Dad ever passed while I was in Winnipeg... for some reason I feel like I should be back here, making the best with what he may have left... Is that morbit??? Am I just feeling guilty?? or should I be trusting my gut...
Wow... too much thought right now for that..
Happy new year...

Well, its been a while since I've decided to write in here. The whole healing situation, makes me tired after work, so the thought of surfing around on the internet seemed too much trouble.
Party this weekend at Lyndas was good. Got to see some old and new faces. Drank and smoked a lot. I also realized something about myself. I am super competitive when it comes to sports, well god I literally broke my ankle cause I just get right in there. However when it comes to getting people's attention, or pursuing someone, I just don't have it in me to be competitive. I figure if things happen they happen, I don't need to throw myself on people to be accepted. However, because I have moved around so much, and have met so many different types of people, I know of ways to get to know people without being too much in there face too. People come and go in your lifes, some turn into being great friends that you will never leave, other people come into your life for a reason, or some people who you think are your friends are only your friends for a season.... read that in an email forward, "people come into your life for a reason, season, or a lifetime.
Got my hair cut and colored on Saturday too, so I will be looking all snazzy for when I go home. I more day of work, then I fly out on Tuesday morning. YEAH!!
I can't wait to see my Dad.... hmmmm lobster and Turkey for xmas dinner.
So Lynda is trying to set me up with a friend of hers that she goes to school with. He's a nice guy, got to meet him at the party. Think we smoked him up too much though... it was funny, how people who arent used to smoking the mike and lynda gaggers.... ehehehe.
Anyways, should go soak in the tub... body is sore.
Happy HOlidays....